Escape.

Wish I could write a song and play it for you
But I steal others' melodies and sing out of tune
And I know, in this way
Not a thing will be good enough to say to you

Just something I made up while in the Brand New mindset. Naturally, the line about stolen melodies is because I made these lyrics up to one of Brand New's melodies. Hah. Their music is good brainfood for me. Honestly, they've created the aura I've been living in for a good period of time.

All I have to say is, I know why music is in my life. Writing and music. Last summer, I found my escape. It may be crazy to say, but this really is my way of dealing. When I'm in here, whether it's in front of the screen or equipped with a pen in hand, I'm at my best. Add some good tunes to the mix, and I'm complete. Everything else is gone when I find a song I can relate to, when I get my feelings out of me and into words I could never manage to express so articulately out loud. I don't know what I would do if I hadn't discovered this therapy. All I know is it's the reason I'm the generally upbeat person that I am. It keeps me going through the tough times because I can write it and release it, and move forward with my life. And it's times like now that I appreciate that so much.

One more thing, thank God that you can write unpublished drafts on here. I'm developing a small army of them. Haha. They're nice to have, but they're things I'm too afraid or feel I don't need to post. Maybe someday. But for now, it's nice just to have them out where I can read.

Because even if you can't see it, at least I know it's out of me, that it's there, and that my thoughts are that much clearer.