Patience.

"Many are the plans in a person's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails." Proverbs 19:21

As I study patience, my mind fades away. I'm in desperate need of these lessons and my mind needs focus. So I come here.

God, I want so much, and I want it all now. Why is it that I can't make my mind slow and enjoy the now? The moments I cherish fly by, the hours of work and obligation stretch for days. It hardly seems fair, but I know this is what you're trying to teach me, to delight in everything I do. I need to praise you in my work. I need to thank you in my joy. It's so easy to say thank you for the good, for the gifts you've given me. Why then do I forget to thank you for the blessing of a balanced life, for 40 hours a week to devote to making a living? These words I read are jumping off of the page and into my heart. Reading can't begin to cover everything I need to learn.

Patience is a virtue I've lost sight of. Patience for 8 hour days, patience when I'm away from the ones I can't get enough of. You've given me a passion for loving with everything I have, and I get carried away. Help me to cherish the time between with the moment of togetherness in mind.

Keep my eyes focused on you; help me to see that everything in this life only magnifies the loving grace you've undeservedly given to me. I've never loved You more, and I never want to love you less. Help me to pass it on, to love like You do.

Thank you for the obligations, for learning new things, and honestly, for patience. Thank you for my struggle, for your power is made perfect in my weakness. Help me to boast in it and be humbled so that everything I say and do can point to the God who loves me.