All it took was a trip down memory lane and some sweet words to soothe my fears.

I've been somewhere too. I've made memories already that I'd rather have forged with you. It's a sad reality of age and growth that at this point in our lives, we will have shared parts of it with someone else. At some point, someone else held our time, someone else had our devotion. This is a natural part of learning exactly what it is we want for the rest of our lives. You and I, we learned by trial and error. We suffer bitter ends and gave several years. I wish I could get mine back, sometimes. Others? I thank God for every minute. I learned so much about myself, about the things I want and don't want. I learned never to skimp on passion. I learned to be selfish with what you need and endlessly generous with what you have to give. If you love someone, give them your everything. If they're worth it, you'll give it without a fight, even though it is the most terrifying experience to lose yourself. The best part? You'll have all of them. Together, you're a team, complete, happy, and owners of everything you need.

I need to thank you. My anxiety heightens at the thought of you, but I owe you for the man I know now. I know you'd never want to, but I wish you could see us. It's effortless, and every time I see him, it's like Christmas morning. His face in the window, I run from my car, forgetting everything I own. You deserve every inch of happiness; I just wish you'd quit running to him to try to find it. Your past is past for a reason, and that which is broken is better left on a shelf. Even if repaired, it'll never be strong enough to hold up against everyday use. You will be happy. You will be filled with a joy that only the One can provide. Give up the past and find him. He's waiting. You deserve it.


God is teaching me how to let go. God is teaching me how to humble myself. Most importantly? God is teaching me how to understand. This future is going to be filled with love so beautiful I can't picture it yet. God gave me a family, and I fully intend to hold onto it, grow it, and never take advantage of it. I want this life with you, and I'll do whatever it takes to keep it.

Thank you for loving me, for letting God shape you into the perfect man for me. I can only pray that God continues to build me into the woman that makes your dreams come true.