Dear You, Guarded Soul

Dear You,

I highly doubt you’ll want to think this is to you, but I’m almost sure you’ll read it. Even if you do know it's you, you may not acknowledge it to me. It's okay, do what you will with it. I feel so much pressure to communicate this completely, like even the smallest mix up will be taken the wrong way. I miss the you I once knew. The you I was important to. No, that’s not me being selfish. I just feel like you were such a good person then.

You seem to have abandoned almost everything I really admired about you. Maybe that’s why we fell apart. I fought too hard only to meet resistance. All this time, and I still think about it. I still think about you. But I don’t know if you ever really think about me, about memories once so fond. I want you to know that it’s okay to remember. Maybe you don’t want to, but I think it’s valuable to: to remember, to learn. I hope it taught you a lot. You taught me a lot.

Don’t be too proud. I wish you’d find that old you again. I don’t think you realize how different you are. People are worried about you now. I’m worried about you now. The you I knew so well had it together. But you let it crumble; I don’t even know why it happened. You were so sure, and now it seems like you live to keep up appearances. You say you go against the norm, but I can see beyond your surface. You’re more lost than ever. And I want to be there for you. I can help you. All I want is for you to be someone you’ll be proud of. Don't be mad for this. You need honesty.

The way you talk doesn’t make you look any better. The way you act doesn’t make you any hotter. Do the world a favor and drop the ego. Be real. Let someone love you without boundaries. Quit the mind games and playing girls. Get yourself out of the messes you’re headed to before they trap you. I still know you well, better than you think. I found peace when I got over you. Now I want you to find yours from whatever burdens you. I still care about your well being and I’ll always be here for you. I really do want to be your best friend. Let down your guard. You won’t regret it.