I need. I want. I feel. Epiphany.

I feel weightless. I feel free. On top of the world with no standards to live by.

I feel like going out on a weeknight, like staying out way later than I should the night before I have a big assignment due.

I want to do something that my conscience would deem completely and totaly reckless.

I feel like being wanted more than I'm wanting, for once.

I want to go running at midnight, outside, alone, and be unafraid.

I feel like jumping out of a plane, getting a tattoo, and driving with no destination till my gas gauge says empty.

I want to tell someone every single one of my imperfections and have them not take advantage of them.

I feel like making friends with a stranger, and make a lasting friend as a result.

I want to hang out with kids I'd never dreamed I'd be around and love every second.

I feel like skipping my first-meeting shyness and doing something crazy in front of a someone new and having them accept me whole heartedly for the goofball I am.

I want to not need my cell phone because I'm with everyone who I'd want to talk to.

I feel like letting go and not making second guesses.

I want to start fresh with the people who would never hurt me. Who know me inside and out and love me for it. And who are willing to let me know them inside and out.

I feel like feeling beautiful without fearing coming across as vain.

I want to play or sing in front of someone and not care how bad or good I sound.
I feel like going out on a day when I'd rather stay in.

I want guilty pleasure moments I'll never regret.

And I realize who I need in all of that. And I realize that I love those people more than anything.

And now's the time. Because I know you don't feel like this everyday, and I'm acting on it. The past is past, and the here and now is my life. I'm gonna make the most of it and not waste a second being anything but happy. So here's to epiphanies and the people who help you have them, to realizations and the people you won't regret leaving behind, talents and weaknesses, vulnerability and strength. I'm gonna screw up, and I'm gonna do something totally selfless. I'm not pigeonholed or stuck.

In fact, I'm free.