I Dare You.

Because really, who can I be completely honest with besides a piece of paper?

I would love to feel complete, but comparison is inevitable. When life's this eventful all around, it's hard not to feel like I'm missing out. Mine is the one ordinary, but I'm hardly grateful. The bustle of activity around me is contageous, and I'm aching to catch it. Something from left field, anything from out of nowhere; I need something to mix up monotony. Most people are content with life being a happy shade of normal, but I just can't make myself fit. I like the unexpected, and change keeps life interesting. I need my dose; I'm overdue. Coasting these past days and weeks in sick beds and reruns has me falling into the corner office mentality. Stain my skin, shock my spirit. Something shiny and new is looking mighty enticing, all I need is the store window to reveal exactly what I'm shopping for.

I'm here and I'm listening. I'm only one person, but I know you feel that itch for something fresh growing in you. I want a change of pace; do you? I'm ready, I feel it coming, but I don't know what to expect. And I love it. I don't know what it is, but if you're reading this and dying to get something out, don't leave me, her, him, or whoever you're thinking of hanging. Don't be afraid to be the change we all need every now and then. I won't settle into a routine. I refuse to watch life pass me by. I do miss the times when I never knew what to expect and the people who did it best. I do miss countless times I spent being young and crazy.

This is a call to action. This is a challenge. If you have anything you're holding in, let it out. If you're entertaining thoughts in your mind and they're palying at your lips, don't keep them in. Take the day-to-day averageness of life and kick it aside. Who ever wanted to just go through life blind? I need the edge of the cliff and the smell of the sea to remind me why I'm alive. I can't just go through life, wasting my time; I have to really live it. So go ahead, say those forbidden words or spill the confession you've been storing up. Reveal those feelings you've been nursing for someone you still care about. Life's about the moment, so take this moment as yours. You won't look back and wish you'd wondered what if instead of acting on it.

I will crawl. Somewhere my unexpected is coming. I just don't know where to look. I think that's a good start. Unexpecting the unexpected. Whoever you are, whatever it is, set my life on fire.

I always have been restless.

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