It is horrible to say that you piss me off more often than not? Is it so bad that I'm pretty sure I'm only still holding on because I feel like ending things now wouldn't absolutely crush you? I want to come out on top. No way I'm getting more hurt out of this than you. One way or another, I will get the best of you. Whether it's the best of the best of you, or getting the best of you in the worst way possible. You aren't devoted. I should've seen this coming. Face to face, you're nearly perfect. But you never want to make face-to-face work. You don't want perfect. Your communication skills get on my last nerve. If you don't like me anymore, let me go. I can find a hell of a lot better.
You do things because you have to, because it’s the boyfriend thing to do. It’s not cute when you do things because you think you have to. Fuck it. Be yourself. I don’t want you to text me if you feel like you have to. I want you to want to, and if you don’t, something’s wrong. I’ve realized it’s not me. You can’t commit to anything real. You have that one best friend. Alright, hope you’re happy with him, because you’re pushing every damn thing else away. I see why she got so fed up with your shit. I see why she is so concerned for me. You can’t devote yourself to me. I went out of my way to make sure you could have everything you wanted, but you didn’t ever want me as much as you want him.
I’m so close to over this. I don’t know why I’m still with you. It’s everything you didn’t do. I’m so pissed because of everything you didn’t do, everything you just let slide. Every time you went without texting or calling, and every time you ditched me. You don’t care about me because if you did, you’d change. I’ve realized I can’t change you. I thought I could, but only you can change yourself, and I don’t think you want to. I’m so sick of being pissed at you all the time for what you never said, for what you never do. If things don’t change like now, bye. Too bad I’m only still with you because if I broke it off now it wouldn’t hurt you. I want to hurt you.
You don’t deserve to hurt me again. I lied; I’m not falling for you.
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